Social Anxiety

I found the Golden Gate Bridge-red outdoor speaker in a dumpster in San Francisco’s Marina District. I kept calling it the “bell,” but during the pandemic, I started thinking a lot about people’s interactions with one another, including my own, and how they could be sources of stress. Despite its lovely bell shape, the speaker’s intended function in a public space - to be loud and attention-grabbing - made me want to use it as the basis for a piece on social anxiety. Perfectly incongruous. The metal, both supporting and encaging it, represents the barriers we often throw up to “protect” ourselves in such situations. An Arduino controls an off-balance motor that causes the speaker to shake slightly at random and a tiny media player to play my recorded voice through a small amplified speaker inside the red speaker. These recordings, awkward and cringey, are my effort to voice the anxious chatter I often have in my head in these types of situations.